LET THE POSITIVE POWERFUL FORCES OF THE UNIVERSE OF GOD REPAY ALL MY ENEMIES WITHOUT A CAUSE. THEY VOLUNTEER TO MAKE THEMSELVES MY ENEMIES. I HAVE RESPECTED EVERYONE ELSE. YET IN THE PUBLIC EYES I AM DISRESPECTED DEHUMANIZED BELITTLE DEGRADE AS A 59 YEAR WOMAN WHO SON WAS JUST MURDER. THEY DO THIS RUTHLESS MESS TO ME. A LOVING CARING HEARTED WOMAN NEVER MURDER ANYONE

 DEAR HOLY RIGHTEOUS JUSTICE HEAVENLY FATHER. I COME BEFORE YOU WITH A LOVING HUMBLE HEART.

 LORD GOD ALMIGHTY EXAMINE THE INSIDE OF MY HEART. 

I DON'T MISTREAT ANYONE MOTHER, FATHER SON NOR THEIR DAUGHTERS.

 I TREAT EVERYONE WITH DESCENT RESPECT AND RESPECT THEIR RIGHTS TO PRIVACY.

AT THE AGE OF 59 YRS, LORD ONLY YOU HELPED ME 

TO GET THROUGH A LOT OF STRUGGLES, TRIAL AND TRIBULATION, RACISM IGNORANCE.

 LORD, I ALWAY WORKED HARD FOR MY MONEY. NEVER RAN SCAM SESSION

 TO TAKE MONEY FROM POOR , DISABLED OLDER PEOPLE AND FIND THE HUMOR 😄 IN IT. 

I HAVE NEVER MISTREATED ANYONE MOTHER LIKE MY LIFE BEEN TREATED.

LORD, EVERYDAY YOU HAVE MERCY ON THESE EVIL YOUNG PEOPLE 

TO STOP DOING ME WRONG. 

GRACE MERCY KEEP BEING EXTENDED 

TO THEIR EVIL MOCKERY HEART. 

THEY LAUGH DOWN THE MURDER OF MY SON LIKE ITS A PARTY CELEBRATION. 

THEY BRING CHILDISH DEVIL BEHAVIOR MY WAYS. 

LORD THE SO EVIL THEY ARE INTERFERING WITH MY MINISTRY STREET HOMELESS OUTREACH MISSION TO HELP OTHERS. 

GOD ALMIGHTY STRIKE THEM BACK IN YOUR OWN WAY WITH THE SAME RUTHLESS, BITTER, UNKINDNESS, WICKED MOCKERY HEART. 

BY THE AUTHORITY NAME OF JESUS CHRIST AND THE BLOOD OF JESUS CHRIST MINISTRY OF NAZARETH. 

I SEND RETURN THOSE ENERGY SATANIC DEMONIC RUTHLESS, MOCKERY UNCLEAN EVIL DARK FALLEN ANGELS 

BACK UNTO THEM THEIR SOULS FILLED WITH ROTTEN DARKNESS IN THE AUTHORITY NAME OF JESUS CHRIST AND BY THEY BLOOD. 

LORD, YOU SAID IN YOUR WORD " WHAT YOU HAVE DONE UNTO MY LEAST ONE YOU HAVE ALSO DONE UNTO ME" 

LORD, THEY HAVE MISTREATED YOU BY BEING MY LORD AND PERSONAL SAVIOR KING RULER OVER MY HEART AND SOUL. 

THEY HAVE DONE RUTHLESS, MURDERING THINGS 

TO INNOCENT PEOPLE HAS GOTTEN AWAY WITH IT. 

LORD, YOU ARE TRULY THE FINAL JUDGE 

REGARDING MY LIFE. OVER ANY FRAT UNIVERSITY KIDS, THE ALL ABOUT 

MY LOOK YOUNG AND OLD WOMEN. 

LORD, I AM JUST A WOMAN THAT PROMISED TO SERVE AND OBEY YOU AND YOUR WORD. 

LORD, I AM JUST YOUR VESSEL

 TO PRAY WHEN YOU DESIRE FOR ME TO PRAY, SING 

WHEN YOU JESUS DESIRE FOR ME TO SING, PREACH & TEACH LORD WHAT YOU DESIRE.  

LORD, IT'S NEVER BEEN ABOUT LOOKS, MONEY, CARS, DEHUMANIZED BELITTLE DEGRADE THE RIGHTS OF ALL HUMAN BEING. 

LORD, THE MURDER MY SON THESE ENTITLED PRIVILEGES KIDS OF KAREN THINK JUDGEMENT PUNISHMENT 

WON'T COME KNOCKING AT THEIR DOOR FOR SIN DEBT THEYVE ACCUMULATED. 

LORD PEOPLE HAS MALICIOUS RECKLESS INTENTIONAL OUTLANDISH 

HID MONEY FROM ME, DEPRIVED ME FROM, FRAUD, SCAM ME OUT OF MONEY. 

OLDER DISABLED BLACK WOMAN 59 YEARS OLD 

WHO OVERCAME TO STROKES, TWO HEART SURGERIES THREE STOMACH SURGERY. GOD GOT ME THROUGH IT. 

LORD YOU HELPED ME TO RECOVER AND THIS EVIL GENERATION OF PEOPLE DESIRE TO DISPLAY ME BC LOOKS. 

LORD, YOUR WORD SAYS IN PROVERBS 31 BEAUTY FADED 

BUT A WOMAN WHO FEAR, RESPECT THE LORD OUT WEIGH THEM ALL.

 LORD, GRANT MY PRAYERS THIS DAY. 

YOU WON'T ALLOW THESE WICKED HEART

TO GO UNPUNISHED FOR THE WRONGDOING EAGERLY DONE AGAINST ME WITHOUT REASON OR CAUSE. 

LET ALL THE MONEY PEOPLE STOLEN FROM ME OVER THE YEAR 

BE KNOWN UNTO YOU AS SATAN EVIL CURSE BLOOD MURDER, SCAM MONEY. THEIR GREED FOR LOVE OF MONEY

 TO DO EVIL ROOTS WITH IT BECOME A CURSE UPON THEY OWN EVIL, DISOBEDIENCE HATEFUL, REBELLIOUS ACTS, WAYS AGAINST GOD. 

YOU SAID REBELLIOUS IS A FORM OF WITCHCRAFT. THE MORE THE REBELLIOUS AGAINST GOD'S KINGDOM, WORD AND WAYS.

 THE MORE THE ENERGIES OF THE UNIVERSE SEND IT BACK UNTO THEM. THEIR HOUSEHOLD INCOME ON THEIR JOBS, COMMUNITY PEOPLE BECOME

 TO HATE THEM BACK WITH SAME ENERGY SATANIC VIBRATION THEY DONE UNTO ME WITH NO REASON. 

JUST TO BE APART OF GANG STALKERS HARASSERS GROUP FOR SATAN INTERNET MONEY AND LIKES.

WAS IT WORTH ALL OF IT

THEY REBELLION AGAINST GOD WAYS AND LAWS PLACE THEMSELVES UNDER WITCHCRAFT BLACK MAGIC SPELLS 

The Root of Evil (1 Timothy 6:10): "For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows" (KJV). It is the desire for wealth, not money itself, that is dangerous.

Tainted Wealth: While all money belongs to God (Haggai 2:8), the devil offers temporary, corrupt, or sinful riches that bring sorrow and destruction (Proverbs 10:22).

Temptation of Judas (Luke 22:3-6): The devil tempted Judas with money to betray Jesus, highlighting how wealth can be used as a trap to lure people away from God.

False Security (1 Timothy 6:9): The Bible warns that the desire to be rich traps people in "foolish and harmful desires".

The Opposite - God's Blessing (Proverbs 10:22): "The blessing of the LORD, it maketh rich, and he addeth no sorrow with it"

WIRELESS REMOTE DEVICE BEING USED ON ME INSIDE DAY & NIGHT. IT COULD BE COPS, TRAFFICKERS OR IVEYO MARQUE DAVID EASTMAN. THIS HAPPENED DAY & NIGHT. I WALK TO THE STORE GANG OF PEOPLE ARE FOLLOWING ME. MY LIFE IS BEING BULLIED BY THESE COWARDLY WHO HELP MURDER MY SON ANTOINE JERMAINE LAX

 I am being cyber HARASS after the murder of my son Antoine Jermaine Lax September 04 2025 these same people were involved behind the camera of his murder. 

They followed me to Mansfield ohio has been going on with Crystal Lashelle Lax for over 30 days they're using wireless devices to watch me inside 

Save Yourself From Self Destruction Dark Fallen Angel Assigned To You. Accept The Lord Jesus Christ To Rule Over Your Entire life

 

Demon of self destruction

A "demon of self-destruction" is a metaphorical concept for the internal forces

negative thoughts, destructive behaviors like addiction, self-harm, or deep-seated shame

My Pastor Evelyn Ponder R.I.P of Griffin, GA

Always preach "If you're ashamed of something, then get rid of it." 

If you're ashamed of how you've been living your life.

The choice you chose for your own life.

Get rid of that demon.

These demons influence people to harm themselves.

Psychological battle against one's own harmful impulses,urges, notion and surges emotional turbulence.

Religious & Spiritual Interpretations

Christianity: Evil spirits can influence suicidal or self-destructive actions, 

biblical examples like the boy thrown 

into fire and water (Mark 9:22).

General Spirituality: Feelings of depression, anxiety, unforgiveness, 

and intense cravings for unholy things are sometimes

signs of demonic influence or "spirits of destruction". 

Psychological & Metaphorical Views

Internal Struggle: It represents the "battlefield of the mind" 

where negative thoughts, guilt, and shame lead to actions 

like addiction, self-harm, or extreme risk-taking (e.g., "Sex, Drugs, and Rock 'n' Roll" era).

Shame & Vulnerability: Shame is a core driver, with behaviors acting as coping mechanisms. 

Overcoming it involves authenticity, taking healthy risks, and being witnessed without judgment. 

How to Combat It (Secular/Spiritual)

Self-Awareness: Recognize harmful thoughts and patterns as the first step.

Discipline & Routine: Create structure to weaken chaos.

Mindfulness & Healthy Outlets: Meditate, exercise, and find positive coping mechanisms.

Seek Support: Connect with positive influences, mentors, or professionals.

Spiritual Practices: Prayer, reading scripture, and seeking deliverance (in faith contexts). 

The "demon of self-destruction" is a powerful metaphor for the human capacity for self-harm, prompting a need for inner work and external help. 

Depression

anxiety

heaviness

rejection, 

resentment

unforgiveness

disappointment

loneliness

misery

depression

self-destruction, 

It will try tell you "No one loves or care about you."

Jesus Christ Love you, this is all that matters in the end. 

Fighting Against Evil Spirits of Sabotage & Self Sabotage Being Close To Your Breakthrough

 Sabotaging demons, often described as a "Spirit of Sabotage," are malevolent spiritual forces believed 

to deliberately hinder, delay, or destroy a person’s progress, destiny, and relationships, especially during times of advancement. 

They operate through subtle, behind-the-scenes manipulation, fostering fear, jealousy, confusion, and self-sabotage to cause setbacks and, in some cases, premature death. 

Key Aspects of the Spirit of Sabotage

Targeting Advancement: These spirits are most active when individuals are close to breakthroughs, targeting builders, pioneers, and those with strong spiritual assignments.

Methods of Operation: They work through betrayal, internal collapse, miscommunication, and disunity.

Self-Sabotage: If external attacks fail, this spirit influences individuals to ruin their own lives through bad decisions, negative habits, and fear.

Partnerships: It often works in conjunction with other hindering spirits, such as those of delay, confusion, and discouragement. 

Symptoms and Indicators

Individuals under this influence may experience repeated, inexplicable negative patterns, such as: 

Constant, failed relationships.

Unexplained, last-minute destruction of success or projects.

A feeling of moving backward despite trying to move forward.

Intense, irrational fear and self-doubt. 

Overcoming the Spirit of Sabotage

Deliverance and spiritual warfare are often recommended to combat these forces. 

Spiritual Authority: Utilizing prayer and the "sword of the Spirit" (the Word of God) is considered the primary defense.

Identifying Targets: Recognizing that these attacks often come in "birthing seasons" allows for proactive defense.

Renouncing Fear: Overcoming the fear and insecurity that these spirits feed on.

Breaking Patterns: Actively resisting the urge to engage in self-destructive behavior. 

 JESUS SPIES EVIL FAMILY HEART

PEOPLE CHANGE THEY STREET WAYS

YOU GOING MESS WITH US

HUH🤔

WE UP HERE RESPECTING EVERYONE ELSE

THEY BEING DISRESPECTFUL TOWARD US

TAKING OUR KINDNESS AS WEAKNESS

I AM TRY ENCOURAGE EVERYONE ELSE 

UPLIFT THEY LIFE DREAMS GOALS 

I GET NOT GOT DANG HELP, 

NO LOVE SUPPORT, HALF DRY ASZ NOT MEANINGFUL CONGRATULATIONS, DON'T BUY EVEN A TWO DOLLAR BOOK. 

OVER LOOK ALL MY GOT DAM ACHIEVEMENT DESPITE WHAT I ALREADY BEEN THROUGH IN LIFE

ENCOURAGE SO THEY CAN THROW WORDS TO DISCOURAGE 

WOULD RATHER SEE ME STAY LOW BELOW THEM THAN SEE ME EQUAL INTELLIGENT 

LIKE THEM

JEALOUSY EATS AT THEIR HEARTS OVER MY PERSONALITY 

LIKE JOSEPH BROTHERS HATED HIM, CAIN JEALOUS OF ABEL, 

RACHEL JEALOUS OF LEAH FOR HAVING BABIES BY JACOB

SISTER JEALOUS OF ANOTHER SISTER

IF I GET VICIOUS BACK WITH WORDS

WE DON'T HAVE THE SAME DADS

I CAN CARELESS IF THESE FAKE SISTERS 

BY BLOOD LIFE ME OR NOT

LIKE THEY HURTING ME AS A GROWN ADULT WOMAN AT AGE 59

PLEASE, I MADE IT THROUGH LIFE ALL THESE YEARS 

WITH STRANGERS TREATED ME BETTER THAN BLOOD SISTERS

I DON'T HAVE TO KEEP REACHING OUT TO BACK BITING SNAKES 

WHO CAN GIVE A FXCK ABOUT ME ON REAL TALK NOT BIBLE VERSE 

THEY WANT THEIR SILENT TREATMENT TO HURT ME. 

NO. IT'S SHOWING THE WORLD ON MY PLATFORMS

HOW HATEFUL THEY TRULY ARE AGAINST ME

IN MY FAMILY MEMBERS CIRCLE 

THEY GROUP UP AGAINST THIS ONE PERSON IN THE FAMILY AND BAD GOSSIP

HERE'S THE REAL POOP 💩 PART

NONE NEVER INVITED ME 

TO STARBUCKS COFFEE ☕ MY FAVORITE PLACE TO RELAX 

YET, THESE PEOPLE KNOW ME..

Y'ALL WE UP HERE LIVING GOT DANG RIGHT. THIS PEOPLE WATCH US LIKE MURDERS 

THEY WEAR BADGES 

YET RAPE OUR POOR DAUGHTERS 

USE POLICE DEPARTMENT EQUIPMENT AND DEVICES 

TO SPIE ON US IN BATHROOMS, HOTELS WALLS, HOSPITAL ROOMS. 

YET, THEY CAN'T CLEAN UP THE STREET 

FROM FETNALY, CHEMICAL DRUGS THAT'S MURDERING PEOPLE ON THE STREETS. 

CHILD MOLESTER IN HOMES, PILLARS OF THE COMMUNITY, CORRUPT POLITICAL OFFICE WORKERS.

WHAT PART THEY DON'T GET😕🧐🤔

WE VOLUNTEER BY FREEWILL 

GIVE OURSELVES OVER TO CHRIST JESUS 🙏 

PEOPLE THAT'S BEEN THROUGH HELL WITH JESUS CHRIST 

WE KICKED DOWN THE GATES OF HADES HELL

STREET PEOPLE WHO BEEN RAPED, ABUSED 

FILLED WITH ICE COLD HEARTS, 

COULD GIVE A FXCK ABOUT YOU HEART. DIDN'T CARE ABOUT YOU.

HARD, BITTER, ANGER, HURT HEARTS AND BEHAVIORS. 

ONLY GOD TOOK EX GANGSTERS,GANG MEMBERS, DRUG DEALERS, PROSTITUTES, STREET MENTALITY MIND FRAME 

TURN US INTO JESUS CHRIST MINISTRY FOLLOWERS. 

YOU MESS WITH PEOPLE 

TRY HELP OTHERS IN THE COMMUNITY.

NO LONGER SHOOTING UP MESS, BEATING DOWN PEOPLE, YOU SPY ON US.

THE CHANGE SOULS THAT ONLY GOD COULD BREAK US. 

THE OLD US WOULD'VE DESTROYED PEOPLE, DAMAGE, DEVOUR, 

HAVE THEM FEELING WORTHLESS, 

LIKE THEY AIN'T POOP 💩 

YET, YOU AIM, TARGET ME & OTHERS LIKE ME. PENALIZE US FOR DOING 

THE RIGHT THING & CHANGING OURSELVES. 

WE COULD'VE TAKING THE LAW IN OUR OWN HANDS AGAINST 

**THOSE WHO'VE HURT US & FAMILY MEMBERS

HATEFUL, DEMONS FILLED HEART FAMILY MEMBERS**

WHAT PART OF SELF RESTRAINED, ANGER MANAGEMENT 

THESE PEOPLE NOT GETTING IF WE ALLOW THE OLD MAN OR WOMAN TO ARISE.

WE WOULDN'T CARE ABOUT NOTHING. 

I'M TRYING HAVE STREET HOMELESS OUTREACH MINISTRY TO HELP STREET PEOPLE COME TO CHRIST JESUS, 

UNDER WHERE THEY BEEN PRAYING, PASSING OUT SALVATION FLYERS, FOOD, CLOTHING AND WHATEVER ELSE WE GET..

YOU WANT TO KEEP AIMING AT ME..

DO YOUR GOT DAM JOB THEN .

I STILL MIST BE ABOUT MY GOD FATHER BUSINESS 

I HAVE FOUGHT BUCHANAN MICHIGAN GRAND DRAGONS 

I AM NOT AFRAID OF LIARS, HATEFUL 

WHITE MEN /WOMEN, BLACK FAMILY WHO BETRAYED THEY OWN GOT DAM BLOODLINE 

THESE PEOPLE HAVEN'T SEEN ME OVER 25 YEARS. 

ONLY ON THEIR MIND IS TO FIGHT AGAINST ME NOT HELP SUPPORT POOP 💩 

GOOD 

WHO ARE THESE ALCOHOLIC, DRUG INFECTED, SECTION 8 LIFETIME LIVING PEOPLE 

TO JUDGE ANYTHING ABOUT ME THROUGH ASSUMPTIONS.

NOT SIT DOWN TALK WITH ME DIRECTLY IN MANSFIELD OHIO FAMILY JUDAS. 

WATCH ME ON FACEBOOK THINK 

THEY KNOW ME 

SEPARATED FROM MANSFIELD OHIO FAMILY OVER YEARS THROUGH ADOPTION. 

LIVE IN INDIANA. WHO THE HELL RAISE ME?

HOW THE HELL CAN AMATEUR WANNABE DRUNK DR. PHIL 

TALK ABOUT WHAT I AM DOING RIGHT FOR THE LORD?

WENT THROUGH HELL BC OF THEM REJECTED ME AS A CHILD. 

THROWN IN & OUT OF FOSTER CARE. 

LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE. 

CAUSE THEY DON'T WANT ME 

TO WALK IN THAT OLD ME. 

CAUSE FORGIVENESS FOR THEY SINFUL

ASZ WOULD BE LIFTED 

I FORGAVE THEM, DON'T BAD MOUTH THESE IMPERFECT MATERIALISTIC IDOL WORSHIPPING PEOPLE. 

THEY DON'T KNOW EVERYTHING I BEEN THROUGH AND EVERYONE I BEEN AROUND.

NOW TIRED OF DRUNKS, SECTION 8 LIFETIME PROJECT LIVING PEOPLE, 

KEEP COMING FOR FAMILY MEMBERS 

DOING THEM RIGHT

THEY UP HERE TALKING INTOXICATED ADDICTION SNAKE WORDS ABOUT ME 

ALL THESE PEOPLE KNOW HOW TO DO

FIGHT AGAINST THEY OWN BLOODLINE FAMILY 

GOOD AT HURTING FAMILY 

LIKE THEY PENIS AND KITTY CAT 🐈 

GET OFF ON IT

LEAVE ME ALONE CAUSE THAT OLD ME WILLING  

MAKE YOU BELIEVE. YOU AIN'T POOP 💩 

LET ME DO JESUS CHRIST, MY BOOKS, 

MY MINISTRY FOCUSED MIND.

CAUSE STREET WORDS. SOME OF THESE NO GOOD MF SHOULD'VE BEEN DEAD 

A LONG TIME AGO FOR AIMING AT ME, 

ABUSE ME, 

DID FXCK POOP 💩 TO ME, EVEN RIGHT NOW ..

SINCE 7 YRS OLD OF THIS MESSING WITH CHOSEN ONE CHILDREN. 

WHY THESE MF STILL BREATHING.

SO IF I HAD A STREET MIND FRAME RIGHT NOW

WHY AM I TRYING HELP OTHERS, YOUNGER GENERATIONS FROM LETTING THEIR BITTERNESS OF LIFE ABUSE, GET THE BEST OF THEM. 

DRUNKS IN THE FAMILY CAN FOLLOW ME OR STAY LEFT IN THE SIN THAT KILLED OFF PAST FAMILY MEMBERS. 

JESUS SPIES WAS FOLLOWING HIM TO ARREST HIM. THEY WAS LOOKING FOR SOMETHING TO ARREST JESUS FOR. 

LOOK WHO THEY WERE...

RELIGIOUS SECT PEOPLE CHIEF PRIESTS, SCRIBES...

JESUS KEPT BEING JESUS BEING ABOUT HIS FATHER BUSINESS...

JESUS FINISHED THIS FOOLISHLY MESS ON THE CROSS

WE HAVE POWER & AUTHORITY AS WELL

TO CALL THESE HARASSING DEMONS OUT, FILE MISCONDUCT COMPLAINT WITH INTERNAL AFFAIRS, DEPARTMENT OF JUSTICE 

THIS WOULD BE INTERFERING IN OUR RELIGIOUS RIGHTS IN MODERN 2026

JESUS KNEW ALREADY

WHAT DO CHRISTIAN PEOPLE SUPPOSE TO BE DOING AFTER THEY GET SAVED & LEARN THE WORD OF GOD GOOD NEWS?

 

   

NOT GOSSIP THAT'S THE TRUTH
WHAT ABOUT WINNING SOULS THAT'S HURTING
IN A MEAN CRUEL WORLD?

I DON'T KNOW MINISTER CRYSTAL LASHELLE LAX COULD BE WRONG ABOUT THIS AS WELL

WIN LOST SOULS FOR JESUS CHRIST
TAKE THEM BACK FROM SATAN HANDS

TAKE BACK WHAT SATAN HAS STOLEN
FROM GOD KINGDOM

DO YOU WANT YOUR CHILDREN,

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 MY MINISTRY JESUS CHRIST MINISTRY LLC

IS NOT A SCAM NO ONE WORKING FOR THE GOVERNMENT

HAS A RIGHT

TO MALICIOUSLY INTERFERE WITH MY RELIGIOUS RIGHTS AND BELIEF.

WE HAVE FEDERAL LAWS RIGHT

TO START A MINISTRY AND ASSEMBLE OURSELVES WITHOUT

THE GOVERNMENT AGENTS POLICE OFFICERS TRYING GET OTHERS NOT TO JOIN, NOT TO DONATE TO OUR MINISTRY.

IT'S A REGISTERED LEGAL BUSINESS MINISTRY.

YES, I CAN ASK FOR DONATION

TO SUPPORT MY MINISTRY WORK GOALS.

STOP, INTERFERING INFRINGING DEPRIVING ME OF MY RIGHTS

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